Rezqi

I was blessed today. I had a chance to pray in mosque. The last time I went to mosque was Raya day. Still remember how Ayah put it as solat budaya instead of solat because of religion.

After sending Atoy to PICC, went to Cik Jan's house to do some suppose-to-do things. I'm glad because I have the opportunity to do so.

Went back home. My heart still feel a bit worried about going to work tomorrow. As I said in previous entry, feels like carrying a burden. My sayang not available tonight.

Read "Panduan Solat Lengkap" and suddenly flipped through solat sunat tasbih. The paragraph said " Boleh diamal sehari sekali sekiranya mampu. Jika tidak mampu, sebulan sekali atau setahun sekali atau seumur hidup sekali."

I remember doing it when in primary school during Qiamullail. Suddenly feel like doing it tonight.

Truth moment. My faith was tested during my solat sunat tasbih performance. But I do hope it will give me serenity and faith to face tomorrow. Hopefully I will be blessed tomorrow until forever. InsyaAllah.

What I Feel

Rite now, a bit relief.
Talking (ym) with Ayu just now, makes me feel a bit lighter.
No matter how hard pressure on you, friends is always a healer.

Family is what I missed the most now. First day, I went back to the empty house.
No sounds of tv or cooking from kitchen nor conversation in the living room.
Feel so empty. So sad.

I know I'm stressed. That's what Aja, Gheeta and Amar felt when they first moved to L2. Still remember how Aja cried at the first night working as L2. Still remember how Amar told me, felt like not worth it moving to L2 as carrying a burden everytime he comes to work.

All of that is the same feeling I have right now. Feels like I'm not belong there. My strength now is I believed that I am always well-protected by Allah. I just need to tawakal and seek help from Allah only.

La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus a'ha. InsyaAllah.

Too Miserable

Hi Everyone,

Sorry because I'm not updating this blog for so long. I'm too miserable. Too miserable too write anything. No happy moments to share. Just sadness.

Need your help my friends. Pray for me. I need strength.

Thank you in advanced.

Far Away

Just got sms from Jason. He bid farewell to me as he is going back to his hometown, Sabah. He wishes me good luck. Before that, Hermin ym-ed me, saying that he still not working now. These 2 person seems far away from me now. Even we are not so close while in the same office, but how could I forget Hermin who never failed to dropped by at my place everyday after having lunch at 5th floor pantry. And Jason who always be my reference in every aspect of my problem no matter in work or personal issue.

Wherever you are my friends, be strong and dont forget me ok!