I just have to say this. I'm sick. Tak tau kenapa kaki aku sangat sakit. I can't stand on my own. I have to push myself up everytime i want to get up.
Paranoid aku makin menjadi-jadi. Dulu aku fikir tulang aku retak or muscle terkoyak. Sekarang aku terpikir kemungkinan kena polio or somebody do black magic on me kepak-kepak (bukan kepak ayam) kaki aku.
It's been more than a week now. Aku dah pun jumpa doktor. Ubat dia pun dah abis makan. But my leg still hurt.
Syukur still boleh jalan and drive and naik lrt pergi kerja. Walaupun setiap kali naik turun tangga, sakit kaki sampai keluar air mata.
Wahai kaki, cepat la sembuh!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
Be Grateful
Even though I don't like my work but I'm aware I must be thankful I still have a job. What about others who has to quit because of economy crisis. What about people in Bersamamu who's from the start of their life not been gifted a knowledge because not their rezqi yet.
Today, Ayah sent me to LRT because my car need a fix after a long time I survived driving it without air-conditioner. Nothing much to tell about work today besides of a lots of unresolved tickets due to a lot of unreachable user.
At 5.15 I'm already pack my things. Arrived at LRT Gombak at 5.45 and Ayah arrived at the same time. The moment I opened the car door, waaa... Already can feel the coolness inside. Hihi. As usual while driving me and Ayah always discussing a lot of things. I stare at Ayah's face. Suddenly feel so sad because I still depend on him. He still needs to worry about me because I'm living alone here.
Arrived at home and my mum already lie at the living hall (I don't have sofa) with pisang goreng beside her. I went straight to kitchen and can see gulai ikan bawal. It is what I need since I'm so hungry because I skipped my lunch today.
At this moment, both my parents already fell asleep. Ayah must be exhausted because he went to fox my car from 10 AM to 4.30 PM. Can you imagine how chronic my car's condition is. Speaking about car, Bart also has bad experience today. She was involved with an accident. Worse, the person who bumped her car refuse to pay anything with an excuse she didnt purposely hit Bart's car. Well idiot, is there any purposely done accident?
Enough of membebel.
Today, Ayah sent me to LRT because my car need a fix after a long time I survived driving it without air-conditioner. Nothing much to tell about work today besides of a lots of unresolved tickets due to a lot of unreachable user.
At 5.15 I'm already pack my things. Arrived at LRT Gombak at 5.45 and Ayah arrived at the same time. The moment I opened the car door, waaa... Already can feel the coolness inside. Hihi. As usual while driving me and Ayah always discussing a lot of things. I stare at Ayah's face. Suddenly feel so sad because I still depend on him. He still needs to worry about me because I'm living alone here.
Arrived at home and my mum already lie at the living hall (I don't have sofa) with pisang goreng beside her. I went straight to kitchen and can see gulai ikan bawal. It is what I need since I'm so hungry because I skipped my lunch today.
At this moment, both my parents already fell asleep. Ayah must be exhausted because he went to fox my car from 10 AM to 4.30 PM. Can you imagine how chronic my car's condition is. Speaking about car, Bart also has bad experience today. She was involved with an accident. Worse, the person who bumped her car refuse to pay anything with an excuse she didnt purposely hit Bart's car. Well idiot, is there any purposely done accident?
Enough of membebel.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
New Job
Yup! I already started my new job now. It's been 2 weeks now. I'm still clueless on what I'm suppose to do.
Tomorrow will be my Monday blues. Too lazy to do anything. Sometimes I do feel like don't want to do anything. Just want to sit at home. But when I think of it, my parents will be disappointed because I will be nobody. So, I don't have a choice now. I have to work, work and work.
I always feel demotivated to go to work. After last week incident where one of the staff criticized me as not friendly, I do feel like I'm not belong there. I don't know how to push myself to approach people. I don't know how to start a conversation.
I need to find a way to make me feel better. I hope things will be better for me. I keep reminding myself only a few of them not friendly to me. Most of them are good and kind to me. I always worried about small things that scared me to hell rather than focusing on a lot of things that can help me to overcome my problem.
Relax Misa!
Tomorrow will be my Monday blues. Too lazy to do anything. Sometimes I do feel like don't want to do anything. Just want to sit at home. But when I think of it, my parents will be disappointed because I will be nobody. So, I don't have a choice now. I have to work, work and work.
I always feel demotivated to go to work. After last week incident where one of the staff criticized me as not friendly, I do feel like I'm not belong there. I don't know how to push myself to approach people. I don't know how to start a conversation.
I need to find a way to make me feel better. I hope things will be better for me. I keep reminding myself only a few of them not friendly to me. Most of them are good and kind to me. I always worried about small things that scared me to hell rather than focusing on a lot of things that can help me to overcome my problem.
Relax Misa!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Real Story
Here's the real story. Actually my sayang came back here. Can you believe it? After 3 years having a cyber relationship with him, finally he's here. I am so happy. He's back on 5th December. I even dragged Atoy to accompany me to KLIA to meet him. Although his father was there. Well Pakcik, I missed your son so much! Haha!
He supposed to be here until 23rd January. But due to Visa problem, he might need to extend his stay. I feel sad and worried too. Because he's not happy here. Even I cannot stop him from going back to London. Yeah... I know I'm not a strong reason yet for him to stay. We have our good time together. I'm not ready to tell it yet.
By the way, we went to see Anugerah Juara Lagu last night. Thanks to Atoy for giving me tickets. Atoy was one of the percussionist for Aiman's song. They didnt win but I know Atoy enjoy what he did through the performance.
Feel so sleepy now. Goodnite!
He supposed to be here until 23rd January. But due to Visa problem, he might need to extend his stay. I feel sad and worried too. Because he's not happy here. Even I cannot stop him from going back to London. Yeah... I know I'm not a strong reason yet for him to stay. We have our good time together. I'm not ready to tell it yet.
By the way, we went to see Anugerah Juara Lagu last night. Thanks to Atoy for giving me tickets. Atoy was one of the percussionist for Aiman's song. They didnt win but I know Atoy enjoy what he did through the performance.
Feel so sleepy now. Goodnite!
Goodbye Darling
I sent him to LRT station at 10.30. Both of us not waving. After looking at his back, walking to the station, I wave to him silently. I know I will cry while driving back home. It is like a farewell routine for me.
But somehow I managed to control the tears. It's quite a wonder to myself why I'm holding the tears. It's not like anyone can see me crying like a little girl. Well, maybe the tears want to wait until I get home.
Still, when I at home, I'm not crying. I watched TV. Something that I rarely do this last few days ( Mana taknya, asyik keluar berjalan je). I told myself, maybe turning 29 make me feel more matured. No more crying over little things.
But I am so wrong. Once I steppped into bedroom and see the stuff he left, I cried. I cried like there's no tomorrow. I realized how sad I am to went back home with nobody inside. Just me and myself. I even hear my own voice which is actually in my head. Or my heart.
I'm so alone.
But somehow I managed to control the tears. It's quite a wonder to myself why I'm holding the tears. It's not like anyone can see me crying like a little girl. Well, maybe the tears want to wait until I get home.
Still, when I at home, I'm not crying. I watched TV. Something that I rarely do this last few days ( Mana taknya, asyik keluar berjalan je). I told myself, maybe turning 29 make me feel more matured. No more crying over little things.
But I am so wrong. Once I steppped into bedroom and see the stuff he left, I cried. I cried like there's no tomorrow. I realized how sad I am to went back home with nobody inside. Just me and myself. I even hear my own voice which is actually in my head. Or my heart.
I'm so alone.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Bertemu Dan Berpisah
Setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan. Harapnya perpisahan kali ini, tidaklah terlalu lama. Tanggal 5 Disember 2008 pasti terpahat dalam ingatan.
Walau airmata tak terlihat menggenangi pipi ini. Tetapi sebenarnya ia mengalir laju di dalam hati. InsyaAllah, kau dan aku akan bertemu lagi, mengikat kasih sejati. Selamat jalan, Sayang.
Walau airmata tak terlihat menggenangi pipi ini. Tetapi sebenarnya ia mengalir laju di dalam hati. InsyaAllah, kau dan aku akan bertemu lagi, mengikat kasih sejati. Selamat jalan, Sayang.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Ugly Me
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Last 2 days, after new year celebration, I'm watching tv. There's a movie that I can't remember the title. It was Jet Li's movie. I watched it till the end. Then, after that, I continue to watch Shanghai Knight, Jackie Chan movie on tv3.
Last night, there's a movie title Stormrider starred by Cheng E-Kin and Aaron Kwok. The movie was great but I only watched it half way.
Conslusion, Misa likes old ugly men like Jet Li and Jackie Chan rather than cute handsome comic face hero like Cheng E-Kin and Aaron Kwok.
Reminder of the day : Next time buying Mamee, please buy the pink one, not the green.
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