Rasa Bersalah

"Rasa Bersalah" is my YM status today. Some of my concerned friends then buzzed me to know what's the matter with me.

I forgot MyDia birthday. Even, I talked to him until 1 am, but the fact that the day is his special day totally not registered in my head.

Over these 3 years, this is the first time I forgot about it. And I hope this will be the last time.

I feel so guilty because for my birthday, he really make himself sure not to forget about it. He was the first person who wish me happy birthday.

Please Misa, be romantic ok!

Hilang

I lost my 8GB thumbdrive. Just realized about it last Monday. The last time I remember I hold it is last week Friday. I bring it along with me when attending user at level 21.

I think I must have left it at the user's desk. There are several valuable files in there including my company team building picture and also karaoke picture.

What to do. Careless lagi!

Sunday

I cannot sleep last night. Wasting my time by watching videos on YouTube. Prancing around my house.

I feel tired and dizzy around 5 am. Switched off the light and dozed off.

Woke up today around 1 pm. Shower and eat. While passing my parents bedroom, I glimpsed and imagining Mak lying on the bed. I missed her.

Watching CSI while having some toast. I still like this series even though I missed Grissom in it. New guy, Dr Ray Langston not failing to give new color to the series.

By the way, last night I spend some time to watch old and new videos of Lionel Richie. I just love his music. When I first found out that Nicole Richie is his daughter, I'm quite jealous of her. Hik2.

So, there's no agenda for today. Still battling with my cough. Ayah just called to remind me to drink air asam jawa.

Right now, I want to watch Donnie Darko movie. See ya!

Lambert Vs Allen

Yup, we know the winner is Kris Allen. At first I'm quite stunned when Adam Lambert lost. I knew the result through online at the office.

I'm quite bumped hard when Adam lost and don't even watch the finale show. Until today.

But now I'm over my mourning phase. Actually Kris also the best singer. Now I keep repeating listening to his studio version of Heartless. It's really captivating. At first I hate him for Adam's losses like the title of American Idol winner is ripped off of from Adam by Kris. But now listening to Kris's song kept grew the likeness for him on me and he deserved the title also.

But still Adam is my favorite and will always be.

Batuk Yang Berpanjangan

I'm having a cough since last Wednesday. And still not cured by today. Last night I have difficulties to sleep due to I keep awake when coughing. My chest hurt and it feels like heartburn.

I already went to a clinic last Thursday but seems like my cough is stubborn to go away and want to abuse me till I don't know when. I hope I will getting better at least by tomorrow, because on Monday I may have to go to server room which is known as the coldest place at the entire office building. Being in the coldest place will make my cough getting worse.

My parents already went back to Penang this morning. I missed them already. This week when I'm battling with my on-off fever, there's Ayah who will put wet towel at my forehead and Mak will make hot coffee for me to chase away the bitter taste of medicine that I took.

They have to go back today to Penang with Ating who have to register his on-the-job on next Monday. While packing their stuff this morning, they kept telling not to forget to take medicine and Mak told me she already reheat her gulai ikan and everything that I need for food for today and tomorrow.

Now, I'm alone. Still coughing.

Makan

Today, me and my office mates decide to tapau our foods dekat cold storage. Me, Epi,Fariza,Kide,Niza,Psycho,Fuzah and Fifi went together romping around the mall searching what to eat for lunch. I chose to have a slice of pizza which i dont bother what kind of it. As long as it is halal. I also suddenly teringin nak makan kuih nyonya.

Once everyone settled buying foods, we get back to our office. Actually this is the first time since i'm working here that we tapau food ramai-ramai. Usually we will go to any stalls around KLCC no matter how crowded the stall is.

At first, only me,Fuzah,Epi and Faridah that went to pantry to eat together. Amri already sitting and eating his usual meal brought from home, cook by his wife.

Everything went well with eating, chatting and laughing. Suddenly Amri says " Aku tengok Misa makan kan, dia renung benda dia nak makan tu baru dia makan.' Then he dares to laugh.

Suddenly i feel myself like boiling inside. Terus aku sound pasal tabiat suka tengok orang makan. Apesal tah yang nak tengok orang makan. I raised my voice and told him that it is rude to watch other people eating. Pastu siap komen-komen pulak orang makan macam mana.

Aku siap tanya lagi, sedar ke tak kalau sendiri makan elok ke tak rupa masing-masing?

I dont know others yang tengok aku melenting tu either take side of me or not sebab masing-masing just mumble and I cant hear clearly. Amri, i think quite shocked with me become emotional over a little thing and then he dare to ask me betul ke tak elok tengok orang makan.

At this time, my boiling level rising higher but i chose to ignore, because i know, lagi layan lagi bengang.

Well nak buat macam mana. Aku tak penah pun nak particular sangat tengok orang lain makan macam mana. Aku tak penah nak buang masa nak pikir kenapa orang tu kurus, kenapa orang tu gemuk. Suka hati aku la nak badan macam mana pun. Eiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: Tak heran kalau ada lelaki baca ni then komen perempuan memang emosi.